Name: Vel
Age: late 20s
Pronouns: she/they
Sexuality: lesbian
Zodiac: taurus, cancer moon, pisces rising
Hi! I am the inu behind the once-locked observation room door. You were probably lured here by the distant sound of paws smacking wildly on a keyboard.
Blade's headache, Acheron's angel, and Phainon's princess.
Besides microdosing on F2P gambling, I like reading academic journals. Literally dreading the day I lose instituitional access to databases.
games
Honkai: Star Rail, Rain World, Signalis, Deltarune, Kirby, Breath of the Wild, Portal, Majora's Mask, Little Goody Two Shoes, Spyro, American McGee's Alice (fuck you EA), Silent Hill, Pikminmusic
Pinkpantheress, Attis, 070 Shake, Ethel Cain, Flo Milli, Megan Thee Stallion, Jessie Reyez, Doechii, Mallrat, Tinashe, Charli XCX, SZA, Jhene Aiko, FLO, Jae Stephens, Kehlani, Coco Jones, Renee Rapp, Young Miko, Allie X, Silver Spherebooks (fiction)
Southern Reach, His Dark Materials, Gunmetal GodsOther stuff: I'm learning Arabic and doing worldbuilding for a personal project for funsies. I also really like lore dumps.
Velcro.....
Made with Dokodemo's Marriage Certificate
lesbian selfshipping with men?
Yes, I can do whatever I want forever.Long answer: That fictional man isn't a man once I get my hands on him. I am hopelessly in love with butches IRL, and they straightup don't even have masc lesbians on TV. Instead I get to play by the time-honored tradition of "that man is a lesbian to me, for selfish lesbian reasons." It's really as easy as transing their gender or making the executive decision Blorbo from My Games is a he/him lesbian. Men IRL disgust me - and it's not about genitals, believe me. I am an enjoyer of girl cock. It's the social context of being a man that disgusts me.
What I do with relation to selfshipping has no bearing on my actual sexuality or how I want to interact with real life people. God forbid a weird little freak do what she can to imagine some masculine women.
why do you hc blade as afab?
I'm sorry, but it makes perfect sense. 90% of his insanity can be explained by the idea of going through menopause and then getting his period back during the Fuckening. Genuinely evil. Also, just look at him.For what it's worth, in my Vision of Blade, the situation is he/him lesbian who's had top surgery. (I believe all scars incurred as Yingxing were healed by Shuhu's flesh, so you can't tell visually now.)
gacha pulls? why not pull some bitches
To be perfectly honest, I don't want to date. Even with women and lesbians, the process sounds exhausting. Putting myself out there is probably in the top five worst things.More importantly, I respect women too much to subject one to dating me.
I'm not aromantic or anything, just risk averse. Partly because I worry I'll fall victim to sunk cost fallacy if I date, and partly because I would want a monogamous relationship. Nothing wrong with that, but I don't think it's a good idea for me to have one before I'm in my 30s. Hats off to people who've made it work, but I'm probably one breakup away from a complete mental break. No thank you. I'm happy being single and being insane about JPEGs.
why not more women?
To be frank, I have more respect and interest in women's stories in fiction. I'm far less inclined to disregard canon subtext or hints with wlw relationships.That might be shocking since Acheron is in the last section, but I don't love any of the HSR ships like I did Kiamei. I like Acherswan, Acherobin, and Yotaru (though not as much as Stellefly), but I don't feel like I'm discrediting an enormously important relationship by yumeshipping with Acheron. If we get a Kiana expy and they finally let KiaMei be happy together, I might stop selfshipping with her or I'll just be a fling in the interim. I think it's fair to say the HSR devs want us to think Acheron's Kiana died.
I can't bring myself to do the same with Arlecchino because Clervie's storyline destroyed my joy. I live in Arleclervie delusion world.
Blade is my #1 forever, but if he dies in story at some point, I'll respect his wishes... and immediately jump ship to Jingliu. The only reason I don't selfship with Jingliu right now is it would feel like having my cake and eating it too.
(You can see some Jingliu thoughts here.)
